hi ppl . imma very sad ass today . i dont know laa . i feel so fucked up . i feel fucked up by her. i feel fucked up by everyone . i dont know whether im th one disappointing them or vice versa . this sucks okaay ? i feel so vexed . i was thinking while i was in th shower just  now . what happen ? how did it happen and whye ? fuck . i dont want to continue being this way . cock sia akuuuu . i hate this feeling . i feel guilty and i feel angry at th same time . i feel so useless . i feel so scared . all of that emotion is like in me but mixed up . and all i can do is just type it here . what th fuck am i thinking ? just when im starting to move on , and start afresh , my past haunts me back . it sucks okaaaay ? big time . oh pls , i dowant anybody to give up on me anymore. and if you're going to give up on me anytime soon pls tell me now . so i wont be that hurt , rather than i love you more and then you give up .